A told me last week that he didn't know if he wanted the same things I did. How can I stay with someone who doesn't even know if he wants the same future I do? And when I asked him if he wanted to be with me, he told me he didn't know. The worst part is that A told me this last year and we broke up. And then he changed his mind and we made up, but now he is saying it again. I can't keep playing this game. And I thought things were so good. I can't be some body's maybe. And it hurts and this rye isn't making it better. I have to be strong because I made a tough choice that in the end will be better. But it hurts right now. I saw marriage and a house and babies. He can't even imagine that stuff with me. I can't wait for him forever. We have been together 2 and a half years. If he doesn't know now, how long would we have to wait?
I already regret my decision. But it's been an hour. I need to sleep on it and wait and see. It's his turn to make decisions. I can't be with someone that I convinced to be with me.