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Tuesday, November 11, 2008

A told me last week that he didn't know if he wanted the same things I did. How can I stay with someone who doesn't even know if he wants the same future I do? And when I asked him if he wanted to be with me, he told me he didn't know. The worst part is that A told me this last year and we broke up. And then he changed his mind and we made up, but now he is saying it again. I can't keep playing this game. And I thought things were so good. I can't be some body's maybe. And it hurts and this rye isn't making it better. I have to be strong because I made a tough choice that in the end will be better. But it hurts right now. I saw marriage and a house and babies. He can't even imagine that stuff with me. I can't wait for him forever. We have been together 2 and a half years. If he doesn't know now, how long would we have to wait?
I already regret my decision. But it's been an hour. I need to sleep on it and wait and see. It's his turn to make decisions. I can't be with someone that I convinced to be with me.

6 comments:

Fabulously Broke said...

That is SO true. If he doesn't know now, how long do you have to wait?

Have to be on the same page. If not you're always going to doubt and be paranoid

Canadian Saver said...

Sending big big hugs your way, Arual. I totally understand what you are saying about not being somebody's maybe. We're here if you need us...

Take care {{{hugs}}}

pennypincher said...

The best advice that I can give is to take it one day at a time. I promise it will get better. It is so hard at the beginning because you are so used to doing everything with that person, and telling that person everything about you. Plus, you had already made up your mind that you wanted to spend the rest of your life with that person. Be strong and do what is best for YOU.

Sharon Rose said...

Hi there-so sorry that you are in this situation. has something in his life such as job or health worries made him feel like this and has he been totally honest about his feelings in general? Hope you can both resolve this.

Frugal Dreamer said...

MEN! seriously! What is with them.

I am really terribly sorry. 2 1/2 years and he still doesn't know. I hope things work out for you, and at the end of it all, you're happy.

Les@SpillingBuckets said...

::hugs::

My grandpa always says: "Things have a way of working out" and he's right. This is going to be tough but I am sure it will work out in the end...