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Wednesday, November 12, 2008

What the Fluff

A sent me a text that stated he couldn't imagine life without me. I am at a crossroads. His text was beautifully written (well as beautiful as text speak will allow) and all the things I wanted to hear. Is it wrong that I feel he needs to prove they are not just words? I told him that i am not going anywhere at this point, but I am also not running back. I told him he needs to do all of that stuff for him, not me. And if he doesn't want to do it for any other reason then we are still at the same place really....

I don't know what to do. And strangely I am feeling really strong about the whole thing (well just not a blubbering mess...I don't feel like I am falling apart). And for anyone going through a break-up? Read "It's called a break-up because it's broken" and watch lots of movies and eat curry and play drinking bingo with all of your friends at the bar. Because strangely, I did these things yesterday and I feel okay...I also added two bottles of wine to this mix which may have helped.

Thank you for all of the comments. I haven't really told any of my other friends or family yet because I don't want the questions. And according to facebook, we are still in a relationship. I don't need that guy I knew in the third grade to send me condolences. It seems fake. And again, don't want the questions. How can I explain that a week ago I thought A and I were going to be forever and now it is no longer. I will wait till I know for sure I think.

4 comments:

Making up for past mistakes said...

I've been a bit out of touch the last few days, so I'm sorry to hear you're not having a good time. But glad to hear you are doing "okay."

I agree with facebook, sort of like all the people that wish you happy birthday on there, when in reality they haven't remembered in years on their own!

Fabulously Broke said...

I agree. Keep it on the DL...

Dolly Iris said...

Arual, I read both your posts. Is there maybe something else in A's life that is bringing him down? Maybe he's feeling depressed about his career or getting older. He could be having a twenty something crisis.

You have to decide based on your own feelings. There have been times when I thought BF and I were on the edge of breaking up. It was horrible. Once I even moved my stuff into a separate room for awhile. It's the most agonizing feeling in the world.

I found myself to be in a real pickle if we broke up because all of my future plans were based around him. I started panicking about where I would go and what would I do without my Australia plans and other stuff. In the end we realized there was a lot of external crap that was weighing us both down.

Sending positive vibes, love and hugs your way!

QL girl said...

I really don't know what to say, except for you to hang on in there! I wish you the best, and I hope you find the clarity to make the right decision for YOU.