My eyes swell with tears and it gets hard to breath. I assume that I didn't do anything right which is why I was let down. I beg and I plead, I freak and I cry. And I get mad at myself for acting this way which leads to more tears, tighter lungs, irrational thoughts.
I need to learn to react differently...with more grace and control. I need to remember that I am in control of how I react. And I need to learn to stop dealing with everything through tears. Crying really doesn't solve anything and it keeps making everything worse. Does anybody have any tips on how to deal with disappointment in a more controlled manner? I am open to all suggestions as I am continuously creating a bigger mess than before by letting myself down through my own high expectations.