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Friday, December 5, 2008

What am I doing?

I miss A a lot. I am afraid that if I go back I will get hurt again. I am afraid if I don't go back, I may regret this the rest of my life. I keep doing all of this stuff to keep busy, but it feels fake and empty.

I don't know what to do, and the scariest part is I feel empty.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Two things, keeping in mind that I don't know any of the particulars.

If your thoughts of regret for the rest of your life are centered on being without A, then you probably have a lot more thinking to do.

If your thoughts of regret for the rest of your life are centered on the fear of being alone but not really about being without A, then you probably just need to give it time, and stop thinking about it.

As far as being hurt again goes, there are people out there that will hurt you, and there are people out there that will love you. Sometimes they are the same person. Sometimes they aren't. You are in the best position to figure out which is which, and who is who.

Fabulously Broke said...

But keeping busy, although fake, helps. It makes you feel like you've accomplished something, and it takes time. I'm sorry you have to go through it but it's what you know you need to do.

Canadian Saver said...

I hope you feel better now {{{hugs}}}