I don't only write here. I have two other blogs, for my eyes only, where I write exactly what I feel, think, want, love and hate. I have kept a diary since...well...it seems like forever. From writing about my days on the playground, to what boy I thought was cute to what teacher I felt was out to get me. To trying to make sense of my parents divorce, my brother being taken out of our home, my parents meeting new people and how that affected my head and heart. To my own first, second, third etc. etc. heart break. To trying to reach goals and deciphering messages of my dreams and making sense of messed up memories that kept surfacing when I was in my early 20s.
I like writing here. And having people comment. And sharing my ideas on this little piece of the world I have. But there are parts of me that I don't like sharing. Yet I need to release those parts onto paper as well so I created a private place for those thoughts to be.
Sometimes I think about opening those other two blogs to see what the world would think. Combining all three into a complicated picture of me and allowing all critics to pick me apart, highlighting my best parts, trashing my shameful parts. But, I have people I know who read this. Would they be okay with me opening those other parts of my life? Would they really want to know the reactions I have to their actions? Or exactly want to see just how ugly my life has been?
Do you have other private places you write? Are you okay with the world peering into every aspect of your life? Do you censor some of what you want to write?