My weekend was spent at the Folk Festival. Relaxing in the sun, connecting with people from work, developing new ideas about redesigning my life. This thing with A has me looking at my role in the cycle we play and trying to change my reactions and actions. Maybe it won't mean that A and I work out, but it may mean that I will be more mature for any future relationship that may come along.
Usually when I am upset or stressed about something the first thing I do is drink my face off (not good for mindset, wallet or health). I never feel better, but for some reason I have convinced myself it will make me feel better. Not this time. I have made a conscience choice that I only want to drink to celebrate. And even then I don't need to binge anymore. This weekend I did share a pitcher or two of sangria with my friends, but didn't get messed up and didn't do it to feel better. I was celebrating the awesome sunshine, the awesome music, the awesome people. It may seem like a little thing, but it was a big first step for me on making over my life.
I had such a good, positive weekend. I rode my bike all three days to the festival so was able to get in some exercise too. As sad as this has been, it was a wake up call I need. I don't want to live the rest of my life playing this game and therefore need to figure out what I can do or change about me.
Today I was able to request a payment of $500 to my loan. This extra payment (it is from the deposit we put on the offer for the house last month and is part of the $10000 I borrowed from my dad)means that my loan will be paid off by August 13, 2009. I will then start saving the payments towards the $2000 a year for the next 5 years (interest free)that I have to pay my daddy-o.