Dear Northern Living Allowance!

Rainman and I received the care package you carefully selected and sent to us!

It was super exciting and fun to open. And Rainman was so shocked that a friend I only know through blogging and never met in real life sent me such a wonderful gift! I try to explain to him that often those I speak to online know me better than many people I speak to every minute of every day, this helped show him, rather than tell him.

I am so excited to eat and drink and scent my house with everything!

And the calendar! What a great way to show me your home. This has my wheels turning for potential Christmas gifts next year. Thanks for being so inspiring to me! :)




Thank you so very much. I was not expecting this much awesome and feel truly blessed to have such a wonderful friend living up North.

xoxo
Laura and Jasonhttp://northernlivingallowance.blogspot.ca/

NaNoWriMo

I signed up. I made an ambitious goal to write my daily word count while also attending class 2 nights a week and working full time. I fell behind. And I lost interest in my topic halfway through. Ultimately, I failed at NaNoWriMo, but I was also able to work out some things in my head when I was writing and I was able to let something go.

A few months back, someone mentioned that someone I knew had started providing services to men for a fee. I thought it was just a rumour. Until I found this person's website and realized that it was a fact. I shared my knowledge with a few others that also knew this person -- some laughed, some were disgusted. I felt sadness. I was sad that this person would allow men to rate her in such an intimate way. I was sad that this person put a price based on market rates on herself. I was sad wondering what could motivate a person to make this decision.

And that's what had me spellbound with the entire thing. The motivation that would allow you to put out a menu of services and allow men to literally let other men know you were a good time and what number to call. To be fair, I have never been faced with the choice to make and so can only think through all of this using my own experiences, values and ideas.

The novel I was working on was about this subject. About the effects of duality on one's psyche as this industry is fairly secretive. What would it do to you if you were one person around certain people and another person around others. What would go through your head if your two worlds collided? Not just bumping into each other, but finding out a client is married to your mom's friend and they are invited to family dinner. And then the whole idea that you are aiding a multitude of men cheat on their wives or significant others all for an agreed upon dollar amount. And the entire trust/safety issue -- how could you be sure that a client didn't have ill intentions, especially when you are keeping this part of your life a secret from those that will miss you most?

The premise of my novel was interesting enough and the research I did to learn more about this industry was fascinating -- the language, the etiquette, the menus. Watching independent service providers and agencies fight for wallet share using online ad boards (filled with shooting star and heart characters as well as a mix of upper and lower case letters, reminiscent of the way a teen girl would portray her avatar name on instant messaging 10 plus years ago). But somewhere between day 1 of writing and day 10, I just didn't care anymore. I was tired of having my head in a space of a person who has put her worth up for sale, specials every weekend, for one weekend only.

I stopped writing. I stopped researching. I am trying to stop caring about this person I knew and the decisions she has made. Because it's not my business, I don't know why she has chosen a path that I would never consider a choice, and there is nothing anyone can do to tell her she is worth more than 3 bills an hour. She is an adult and this is what she wants to do with her life. And although I think the novel could have ended up being something really interesting to read, I don't think it's my story to tell.

Although I technically failed NaNoWriMo, I think it was more of a reconsideration about the topic and what I was wasting energy on. Maybe next year. Rainman has demanded that I finish a novel so he can read it.

"I've Got One Thing You'll Understand, He's Not What You'd Call A Glamorous Man"

Last year, at this time I spent a week on the beach with this Motley Crew:

We were all so different, but having the bride and groom as our common interest led us to develop friendships that are still nurtured a year later. True to the definition of a motley crew, we were a "roughly organized assembly of characters" and each one of us made the story of Jamaica 2012 that much more interesting. From quiet Pete who broke his toe climbing the falls and drank copious amounts of rum to numb the pain, to newlyweds Erin and Scott who were celebrating with the news they were expecting their first child, to Team Awesome leaders Victoria and JR who discovered love at the resort while drinking away the early hours of the morning.

This group may be one of my favorite Motley Crews, but they were up against HUGE competition. 

For example, these guys are pretty awesome with their promise to never say die:

                                     Picture from here

And I am forever a fan of these guys who came together with the Mighty Flying V:

                                    Picture from here

And of course, what about those that came together to take down the Empire???

                                                      Picture from here

Who are your favorite Motley Crews? Perhaps it's these guys:

                                                       Picture from here

Tuned In Tuesday

I recently discovered Songza. I love it! Premade playlists to match my moods through out the day? Genius :)

Right now in my ear is Method Man and Red Man's "Da Rockwilder"

Pure Genius.

The weekend starts here

Happy Friday friends!

We had a huge snowfall take place and more to come! This has me super excited because Rainman and I are doing a winter fun day with our fabulous photographer for engagement pictures. So yes, the roads suck and it takes a bit longer to get places, but you get to wear cute boots, matching mitts and toques, and cozy coats while doing anything!

This weekend we have plans to go tobogganing. Super excited to use our new sleds to whip down the hill and hopefully take them off a jump or two. Plus, being all bundled up and playing together outside is super fun. I can't wait to throw some snow in Rainman's face. See that? ahh, love :) I also plan on video games, some movies and the Breaking Amish 2 hour finale. I love me some bad reality television.

We are also halfway through the Wild Rose D-Tox cleanse, so this weekend will be spent keeping ourselves full with creative meals and not thinking about how much we love to sip adult beverages. That has seriously been the most difficult part. I sure love to enjoy a glass (or bottle) of wine while watching movies or beers while playing video games. I can't even say that I feel all that different on this cleanse, maybe a bit moodier and I don't crave sugar as much today as I did on day 3. I am thankful that I spent so many weeks earlier this year playing "Chopped" to clean out my freezer and pantry. It's really helped me cook fabulous meals with the foods we are allowed to eat. This weekend I plan on fish tacos using boston lettuce leaves for the tortilla shell, chicken shish kabobs and as a treat we are going out for shashimi. Not to mention some hummus, guacamole and salsa to snack on with veggies. Have you ever done a d-tox of some kind? How did you keep your meals interesting?

Of course, it is Remembrance Day on Sunday, so hoping to get to one of the ceremonies downtown and show my gratitude for what I have gained from others' sacrifices.As I have mentioned many times, my paternal grandparents met in a work camp in WWII. I am always thankful for their courage and bravery that allowed me to even exist.

What are your plans for the weekend?

Life Snippets

• I have decided that if this is the last year for the world, I have had a pretty amazing year.

• Team McAwesome made a Halloween themed brunch this weekend at Ronald McDonald House and we all dressed up like Super Heroes. My favorite moment was when a little boy staying at the house around 3 or 4 years of age actually thought Rainman was Spiderman and thought it was amazing that Spiderman was making him breakfast. I think it really brought to light to Rainman just how impacting cooking brunch at RMH can be. And if it was even more possible, I fell more in love with him.

• I started contacting vendors about a possible location for our wedding. And I am back to feeling a bit overwhelmed. Although it is looking like the zoo would be a pretty fabulous place to host this. As long as at the end of the day Rainman and I are married, it was a success. I have to stop worrying about all of these little tiny details that are freaking me out. Rainman has been amazing so far --his input into the details have been extremely helpful. I can't wait to be Mrs. Rainman ♥

• Exciting news for my 30 B4 30 (is over) list! I am almost at the final boss for Buffy!!!! So like tonight, I could officially be completing this video game that I have poured hours of my life into! :)

• I am officially signed up for NaNoWriMo. My first go at it has me nervous about making daily writing requirements and excited about the possibilites I can create. I have a bit of a plot outline in my head, so ready to go on Thursday

• As of yesterday, I met my goal of giving back 100 hours of volunteering in 2012. Still 2 months left of the year. If I can complete 30 more hours, then I will also have reached by goal of giving back 200 hours in my 30 B4 30 (is over). Pretty awesome. I have had such a blast volunteering, meeting people, organizing group events and learning new skills. I am super thankful that I have been able to utilize my time for this. And for the people I have surrounded myself with that love giving back as much as I do.

Wednesday Wedding-ness Day/ Tuned In Tuesday!

I have been listening to The Dick Tracy Soundtrack lately. Feel free to judge. I have a Mad(ge) crush on Madonna. And I have been loving "I'm Following you."  So much that I am imagining how cool it would be for Rainman and I to take dance lessons (including tap numbers) and make this our first dance song.

We do have a year and a half....so there is always a possibility I guess. How cool would it be to swing dance, tap dance and potentially include a little 2-step for our first dance?

June/July/August/September Volunteer Hours

June:
United Way 
meeting: 2 hours

Ronald McDonald House:
Working on creation of July breakfast and obtaining sponsorship from Naked Leaf tea house: 1 hour

July:
EWIN
meeting: 1 hour
Creation of EWIN Social Media presentation: 1 hour
Organization of Nutritionist Lunch 'n Learn for August: 1 hour

Ronald McDonald House:
finalizing July breakfast and grocery shopping: 1 hour
High Tea Brunch: 2 hours


United Way 
Meeting: 1 hour
Organization of Clothing Drive: 1.5 hours

August:
EWIN
meeting: 1 hour
Nutrition Lunch 'n Learn: 1 hour

Ronald McDonald House
Finalizing August breakfast and grocery shopping: 1 hour
Breakfast Party Brunch: 3 hours
Promo/Organization and Ticket sales for Bag-o-Booze Fundraiser: 4 hours

United Way:
Meetings: 4 hours


September:
EWIN
Newsletter: 2 hours

Ronald McDonald House
Ticket Sales for Bag-o-Booze Fundraiser and drawing of winner: 2 hours

United Way
Clothing Drive monitoring, collecting and organizing pick ups: 8
Meetings: 2
5K Walk/Run: 2.5 hours

Misc
Dream Centre Radiothon: 3 hours

Total: 45 Hours
Total to date for 2012: 95.5!! WOW! This is so close to my goal of giving back 100 hours this year :)

Sunday Stealing: The End is Near Meme, Part 1

1. Ever been given or received an engagement ring? yes. August 18 2012, Rainman asked me to marry him. I said yes.
 
2. Longest relationship? It was 4 years of constant ups and downs. I don't know if I would call what we had a relationship anymore -- it was more of a shakespearian drama fueled by ridiculous jealousy and dependency.
 
3. Last gift you received? Reese hooked me up with a birdcage to use in place of a veil.
 
4. Ever dropped a mobile phone? Yes. My poor blackberry fared the worse with a shattered screen, time spent in a mop bucket, an overnight stay on the beach in Newfoundland. Yet, she was awesome till the iPhone lured me to the apple side.
 
5. When's the last time you worked out? I ran a half marathon on Saturday -- does that count?
 
6. Thing(s) you spend a lot of money on? Shoes, books, booze.
 
7. Last food you ate? I just ate last night's leftovers for lunch. A delicious medley of spices coating chicken thighs and a acorn squash dish I created using other leftovers in my fridge yesterday. So leftover leftover leftovers -- I live my life like inception.

8. First thing you notice about the opposite sex? They're teeth -- nice, straight teeth are important to me. And once we are talking, I notice if you're witty.
 
9. One favorite song? This week I have been rocking out to Christina Aguilera's Stripped album -- and I still love Dirty.
 
10. Where do you live? in Calgary. 

11. High school attended: Bishop Grandin.
 
12. Cell phone provider: This is getting a bit personal no?
 
13. Favorite shop: Chapters.
 
14. Longest job: PSC for over 6 years. 
 
15. Do you own a smart phone? Why? Yes. Because I like to stay connected on the go. Plus I don't know what life is like without being able to ask Google any question that pops into my head.
 
16. Do you prank call people? Not since I was a teenager. And even then I sucked at it.
 
17. Last wedding you attended? Lance and Jolene's.

18. First friend you'd call if you won the lottery: Rainman.

19. Last time you saw your best friend(s): A group of us went for dinner last Wednesday to celebrate my friend's 30th birthday.
  
20. Favorite fast food Restaurant: If I had to pick, I would go with Pita Express.
  

The Harvest Half

The last few days have been filled with dread and anticipation and running fueled dreams. I didn't feel nearly prepared for this, yet signed up and told myself that even if I walked the entire 21 and some km, I was doing this.

Today started out beautiful. We were greeted with an amazing sunrise as we made our way over to the community centre where the race commenced. Rainman was my one man cheerleading squad and had his camera ready to grab my action shots as I made my way through the picturesque course.

We started at about 8 a.m. and although it was slow to begin with (it always is in races like this as we all work to find our perfectly paced place in the pack), soon we were moving along. Having grown up in this area of the city, I enjoyed remembering who lived where and different events from my childhood as we made our way through the residential streets. 

The first hill was a long, curvaceous climb that I felt really awesome about and I ran the entire thing. Having various peoples' families along the road (and community members on their driveways sipping coffee) cheering us on kept me going. The girls with the signs informing us that we were running better than Calgary Transit made me laugh out loud. Having my music on shuffle and System of a Down blaring as I pummeled that hill helped too.

A few more km through residential streets, we finally reached the park entrance where I was greeted with an off trail run. Down hills on dirt and rocks is scary for me. I kept thinking I was going to slide and cause catastrophe amongst my new 999 closest friends. But I made it. Once in the park, it was about 10 km of flat terrain.

And it was beautiful. We ran through the forest part of Fish Creek first with all of the leaves in vibrant yellows and offering satisfying crunch beneath my feet as I pounded the pavement. I ran under the train tracks as a CP Rail train roared overhead. I felt as though I was in a movie. On the East Side of Macleod Trail, the scenery reflected the prairies more and the run started getting harder. Note to self, bring sunglasses even if there is no sun when you first start.

At about kilometre 16, Rainman was on the side with his camera waving and cheering me on! It was the boost I needed as I began to feel my legs start to turn to rubber and the humongous blisters on the bottoms of both of my feet reminding me with every step that I still had 5 more km to tackle. Not to mention the ginormous hill at km 17. I waved to my fiance and kept at 'er (at this point there was a mix of running and walking).

The HILL. I took one look and remembered many days from my youth having to ride my bike from Sikome Lake home. And knew that I would walk this. At the top, I was greeted with high fives and much needed Gatorade  And the excitement that I had very little left to go. Still walking and jogging, I felt overwhelmed and could feel tears build up in my eyes. This was a huge goal on my bucket list. And I was 1 mile from completing it.

The final leg of the race was through a pathway between houses also littered with leaves. Turning the corner and seeing the school field, my heart raced with elation and as soon as I saw the finish line, I turned on super mode and sprinted across.

I completed my first half marathon in 2 hours and 28 minutes, which I am completely happy with. AND I had the best cheer squad out there who captured my glory as I received my first metal for finishing. I am so happy to have him by my side for the rest of my life cheering me on. I can't wait to reciprocate.

Wednesday Wedding-ness Day!

Last week sometime I found on pinterest a birdcage that had been decorated with feathers to collect cards to sit on your gift table. I love the idea of bringing birdcages into my wedding and have some ideas of how I can utilize multiple cages with metallic spray paint for decor.

I was meeting a friend of mine for drinks the following Friday and she sent me a text stating that she had a birdcage for me! And she would bring it to the pub with her. I laughed and told her that if anyone asked why we were drinking with said birdcage it was because we were mourning the loss of our pet finch. And then we would take a shot in its honour. Which she replied with a "lol" insinuating she was on the same page.

Much to my surprise, this birdcage she brought me was in a small shopping bag. When I peeked inside I found not a birdcage, but a birdcage. I forgot that I had also pinned something similar to wear instead of a veil. It's super beautiful and with one or two peacock feathers, I think it's going to be perfect. I guess my friend has a friend who makes hats and created this, but my friend ended up not using it, and thought I would give it a great home.

I'm very happy to be blessed with so many awesome people in my life.

Even if we didn't get to drink shots to our empty birdcage while remembering why the caged bird sings.

The Law of Attraction and thinking

I had a wicked conversation with a girl friend of mine this weekend about getting back what you put out to the universe. Her example is that she wanted to be able to get a new car, to sell the one she has now and pay off the loan on it. Then while at the till in a store, she was asked if she wanted to enter a draw to win a new car. Like me, she doesn't believe in coincidences so filled out that ballot in 2 seconds.

This conversation came at a really interesting time for me because lately I have realized how much time I spend thinking, wondering, investigating and fretting over something that really doesn't matter and shouldn't involve my energy. But because I think about it so often, it just keeps coming up in conversations around me (partly I bring it up, partly others mention the subject). I am so fixated and fascinated with this thing, I am putting it out to the universe to keep sending me reminders to continue my fascination.

And it has to stop. And it's not an easy thing to stop your thoughts. (Go ahead, I dare you, try to stop thinking about something you think about constantly -- it's even worse when you tell yourself not to think about that thing).

So, how does one stop an obsession she has cultivated for a few months now? Thoughts?

More reasons why I love him

• he woke up this morning at 6 a.m. (it's his day off) to drive me to work. So I can meet my friend after work for drinks without having to leave my car downtown.
• he is also going to pick me up downtown tonight after I am done imbibing.
• over wings on Wednesday, he told me seriously that he wished he read more. That he's envious of people who can sit down and read for hours at a time. And is going to try making the time to read. Men who read are unbelievably sexy.
• he makes fantastic Caesars. Which he served to me while listening to talk about my evening at a women's group information session.
• we have car dance parties and sing-a-longs to 90s music.
• while playing NHL 2013, he moves his feet around as though he is skating. And celebrates when he scores. He is hella-cute.
• he told me that he loves when I get creative in the kitchen and make him something to eat besides porkchops. Even though the crab cakes I tried to create didn't quite make it in cake form.
• he makes me laugh. All of the time. With quotes like "when the fog dissipates" and teasing me about the possibility of being able to see around bends in the road.

Wednesday Wedding-ness Day

So we have decided on a date and potential venues. And a theme. Yay!

We also have our wedding party picked out and have asked each member to stand with us on our day.

Not going to lie, it feels so nice to have some direction on this project. And it was super fun sitting over drinks with Rainman brainstorming ideas. I look forward to more of those sessions as we really hash out how we want our day to be exactly.

We are going with a peacock theme. And upon further research, I discovered that peacocks in art represent eternal life, renewal and resurrection. The peacock is also a symbol of protection and enlightenment which I am hoping our marriage will provide both of us.

Plus the jewel tones, the touches of metallic and the pop of lime green (I think) will be really beautiful.

Feel free to send me peacock influenced ideas! Can be anything from colour combinations to decorations to subtle hints. And feel free to check out my One Day...Soon! Board on pinterest :)

Tuned In Tuesday

I have been Shazam-ing like crazy it seems the last few days. So many songs on the radio, the television and video games are capturing my aural attention.

1)City and Colour The Grand Optimist This is an older song that I crank on the radio and sing along to every time it comes on. I often think of myself as an optimist, but I worry way too much about things I should do, bills to pay, regrets I have. I guess I take after my mother.

2)The Pack A.D Take Another song that I crank when it comes on the radio. I love the bass, I love the sound of the vocals, and I enjoy that the contradiction of angry lyrics with a pop-sound. And am I the only one who wishes this could have been on my "love sucks" mix CD years ago?

3)Finally, Rainman has purchased NHL 2013 which means I get a new soundtrack for another year peppered with hockey cursing and cheering when goals are scored. The Hives are on this year's version and I want more is one of my favorite tunes that comes on in between challenged games while I drink expensive wine and enjoy a (moment's) peace of mind. 

Sunday Stealing on Mondays

23. Why do you think so many people cheat? I think that people get into situations where they settle. And they are not with the person they want to be with or are supposed to be with. They are then less invested in the relationship and it becomes easier to cheat. When you are with that person you are supposed to be with, it doesn't matter who walks down the street, lives next door or is dancing in a night club, all you think about is that person you are with.

24. Tell me what's on your mind? Thinking about how many people settle in relationships and are never truly happy. And how we live in a society that constantly compares peers and their level of happiness in life through online photos and status updates. "Every one in this room has troubles too"

25. What are you looking forward to in the next three months? Finishing up my Social Media for Business Certificate, our first Christmas in our new home, completing my first half marathon.

26. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing? Yes. There is nothing like pulling on a boyfriend's sweater when you are cold

25. When did you last talk to your BFF? I just emailed one of them. I spoke with Rainman this morning when he kissed me goodbye.

28. When is your next road trip? Not too sure. 

29. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to? Yes. 

30. How's your heart? Strong and healed. And growing.

31. Have you ever felt like you weren't important? Yes. Oh the time I wasted in past relationships.

32. Do you think somebody's secretly in love with you? No.

33. What are you planning on doing after this? have lunch.

34. Last time you yelled at someone? Have no idea. I don't really yell anymore. I mostly get really quiet when I am angry.

35. Have you told anybody you loved them today?  I sure have :)

36. Who do you not get along with? I don't really know. Obviously people, but not important enough to jump in my head right away.

37. What does your most recent text say? It's from Rainman, and says "lol" We can be really, really deep sometimes.

38. What are you wearing right now? Shift dress, grey stiletto high boots

39. You're locked in a room with the person you last kissed in high school, how is it? Confession: I didn't really have a boyfriend in high school and actually can't think if I kissed anyone, especially the last person I kissed. So, I could be locked in a room with that person right now and wouldn't even know.

40. When's the last time you had a grilled cheese? Last week. I love grilled cheese.

41. What's your favorite boy and girl name? Boy: Jasyk Girl:no idea.

42. How did you feel when you woke up? Tired, stuffed up, wishing I could stay in  bed

43. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now? I always love texts from my fiance. 

44. Do you think Clint Eastwood would have been better talking to a table? What a bizarre moment. US is a crazy country.

45. What were you doing yesterday at midnight? Sleeping.

Autumn

As much as I live for summer, I am looking forward to:

• Walking the dog in brisk autumn air, stepping on crisp, colourful, fallen leaves, holding Rainman's hand.

• Sipping hot chocolate with marshmallows or perhaps whip cream while watching movies late into the evening.

• Boots with cozy sweaters over skinny jeans or paired with skirts and tights.

• Baking pumpkin pie, carving jack-o-lanterns, and gorging on candy purchased for kids who don't know the thrill of trick-or-treating anymore.

What are your favorite parts of the season change?

Wednesday Wedding-ness day

It's going to take over my life. Let's be clear about it right from the start. As much as I would love to be one of those people you don't want to hide from your Facebook feed because she's updating you on wedding details 18 times a day, this is going to be the next big project in my life. And there are a lot of details. And I have never done this before. And feel a bit overwhelmed thinking about all of these details.

And so, to be fair to my friends (and to hopefully have them not annoyed with me and still want to attend the actual wedding), I am going to try and restrain myself from Facebook updates. And to not turn this entire blog into my wedding obsession, I have deemed Wednesdays to be the day that I discuss all of the details, thoughts, china patterns, colours and (mis)adventures (mrs-adventures???) that are most likely going to consume my day-to-day life (and based on the last few nights, my dream life too). And it's super convenient that I also get to employ my love for alliteration with choosing Wednesdays for this.

So, feel free to avoid my blog on Wednesdays for the next year and a bit (but no, we don't have a specific date just yet -- seriously considering hanging a calendar on the dart board). Or comment lots and offer me advice. Because this is a huge project that I have no experience in and about to jump in with both feet.

Tuned in Tuesday

I watched Snow White and the Huntsman this weekend. This song "Breath of Life" played during the end credits. And at the risk of sounding trendy, I adore Florence and the Machine. From their cover of Buddy Holly's "Not Fade Away" to "Dog Days" to "Shake it out." They are just one of those bands where I enjoy everything they create.

I enjoyed this film version of Snow White too despite K-Stew desperately trying to act her way through it. Oh Bella....you can be a different character once in a while too. Remember Panic Room when you played a little boy? That was fantastic work! ;-)

Sunday Stealing on Mondays

1. What type questions do you hate on a meme? Questions that repeat themselves. I feel I have already answered something and then it gets asked again! Grrr!

2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be? Nelson...and I happen to be marrying him :)

3. Were you happy when you woke up today? Um...mostly a little confused. I drank a bottle of champagne last night and going to bed is actually a blur. The more things change, the more they stay the same.

4. When were you on the phone last? And with who? A couple of hours ago -- my daddy called to tell me he parked on the street and was walking over to our new place.

5. Who are you excited for? Well...for me and Rainman. And we have a surprise happening in a few weeks which will be really exciting, especially for the recipient :)

7. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you? Rainman.

8. What's the last thing you put in your mouth? This question could go in so many directions. Honestly though, it was a sip of beer.

9. Have a best friend? Yes. I am really lucky and have a great group of friends who share in my various interests, listen to me when I need them to, believe the world needs more glitter, and let me be part of their fun lives with each milestone we cross.

10. Were you ever or are you scared to fall in love? Of course, I have had my heart broken badly like so many others and didn't know if I could take a leap of faith again. But I am sure happy I did!

11. Do you think teenagers can be in love? Yes....but I also think teenagers are in a place of discovery. Until you know who you truly are and love yourself, you can not truly love another person.

12. Last person you wanted to punch in the face? No one really comes to mind.

13. What time is it right this second? 6:34:38 p.m. (it changed...)

14. What do you want right now? I want to be able to get out of bed tomorrow and have a really kick ass amazing run.

15. Who was the last person you took a picture with? The girls at the last RMH brunch.

16. Are you single/taken/heartbroken/or confused? Taken <3 br="br">
17. When was the last time you cried? This afternoon watching Ellen. She gave a family a house! Every one was crying. I was so happy and excited for the person who got the house.

18. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? I do now. It hasn't always been easy.

19. Do you find it hard to trust others? No, I am too trusting. And then get bit in the ass, yet still believe that everyone is being true to their word. And I wouldn't want to change that about myself.

20. How fast does your mind change? Not very fast at all. I am pretty stubborn.

21. I bet you miss somebody right now. Who is it? I miss Kerker and Nimet

22. Can you honestly say you're okay right now? Yes. My life is pretty fabulous right now :) I am so very excited with all of the positive things happening in it :)

Sunday Snipets

• We moved! And almost every box is unpacked with everything having a place to call home. And we combined our two houses into one with no feelings hurt over who got to keep what and where. I love our little town home and feel very much like I have always been here. And my cat and dog have accepted Rainman's cat. If only she would give them a chance, I am sure they could be wonderful accomplices in getting into trouble.
• It's the beginning of a new month and my favorite time of year -- fall fashion, cooler air to run in (any time of day I wish), being the recipient of freshly canned awesomeness! yay!
• With the new month, Rainman and I are going to start working out a budget. We have the wedding to pay for and we are in a great place right now where our rental costs have decreased in half. I feel really confident that we can pay for this wedding without going into debt.
• That said, thinking about planning this event overwhelms me a bit. I find myself on pinterest looking for something to inspire the entire theme and getting really worried that it won't be a beautiful affair. Then I look at shoes and feel much better. I am seriously considering some sort of shoe theme for my wedding. And kind of like the idea of varying shades of grey. But not 50 shades...get your mind out of the gutter!
• Rainman's dad was here last weekend, when he left he gave me a hug and said he was happy to have me on board. After watching a few episodes of Monster-in-law, I am thrilled to have mine. Rainman adores my parents the same way they adore him, so I think we will be okay in that department.
• I go back to work on Tuesday after a busy week off. Being a team player of pranks on other office mates, I am a little bit worried about what I may have in store for me.
• I went to a Burlesque show last Friday. It wasn't what I was expecting at all...in fact, it seemed way to close to what I would watch at the peelers. Which was disappointing -- because I really wanted it to be like Burlesque the movie. There wasn't any singing or lip synching, just a bunch of women in various shapes and sizes stripping down to their panties and pasties.
• I had a really wonderful summer. Totally looking forward to a lot of awesome in the next 4 months to wrap up 2012.

Tuned in Tuesday on a Wednesday

You know when you move and you take a week off and you lose track of days? Sorry!

But, to follow Ashley's rule, a day late means two Tuned In Tracks! Yay!!!!

So, here's number 1: Emily Wells "Symphony 1- in the Barrel of a Gun"

I first heard Emily perform live at the 2009 Calgary Folk Fest. And fell in love with her use of the violin (and her cover of Biggie Smalls). I love the violin so much that one drunken night, I bought one off of Kijiji. Which leads to another adventure when my brother and I went to pick it up. There is no video for this song, so just enjoy the sound.

And you know when you are driving in your car and you reach you destination, but a song you love is on so you sit and wait it out? This second tune  -- Danger Mouse and Daniele Luppi featuring Jack White "One" is one of those songs for me. Again, no video, so just enjoy! You should probably also listen to Danger Mouse and Daniele Luppi's song featuring Norah Jones. It's also just as amazing.

The apartment

Tonight is my last night in my apartment. 3 years ago I moved in here and decided that this would be my fresh start in life. And although at first I kept falling back into my old habits with my ex, I would determine that the last three years have been filled with major growth and discovery.

This place is not a luxury home in any way, shape or form. In fact, some months I feel it borders on slums. I have had major issues with the rental company regarding repairs (a leak that happened in April of 2010 and destroyed the ceiling in my bedroom is still not fixed, despite multiple attempts to have it done) and most of the people who have lived in this building last only a few months before making the midnight move. I did love that I had plenty of space, and I was a quick walk from both work and shopping, as well I could easily get down town.

I have cried a lot behind the closed door. And laughed a lot. I read a lot of books, watched a lot of movies and spent copious amounts of time Interneting. I enjoyed shared cases of beer and lone bottles of wine. And in the time period living here I fell in love twice -- once with myself and then with Rainman. It was all part of the process of discovering myself.

We move to our new place tomorrow. The truck will be here at 10, followed by a long day of loading and unloading furniture, boxes, artifacts of my past. After tomorrow morning, Molly will have a new route to walk. I will no longer be greeted by the graffiti outline of Yoda outside my building every day. I won't know the drama that takes place in the adjacent apartments to mine anymore. Or hear good morning from the regular bottle pickers that always reciprocate my smile as I pass them my empties. I will have new spots to become familiar with. A new coffee shop and a new pub to start frequenting. We will be much further from downtown and it will start to feel like a special out of the way trip.

My room mate situation will change as I learn to live daily with my fiance. And we figure out the perfect balance of space and togetherness under one roof. I will have 2 cats and a dog to receive unconditional love from. There will be adjustments for everyone as we start to make the new house our home.

I am excited for the next chapter, but have been so caught up in this chapter, loving each and every moment, I am reluctant to finish the last sentence. To close the door behind me for the final time and leave these walls for the next occupants to dwell within. I hope they experience the growth I have.

The start of something wonderful

Last Saturday I woke up in a horrible mood -- between packing, organizing this raffle, planning a brunch for the weekend we move with Team McAwesome, working full time, my EWIN and United Way duties, I was feeling stressed, tired and not very pretty. Plus Molly was not feeling well and added to my worry for her health.

I went to Rainman's and he suggested that we take Molly for a walk in Fish Creek park instead of running her up and down the stairs every half an hour. I think the dog was in cahoots with him.

Rainman recently bought a new DSL camera and has been playing with it a lot, taking pictures of various things to see how different functions work, effects of lighting, etc. etc. He suggested we wade across the creek to this secluded island in the park and I figured it was to get more pictures. When we were in a little clearing, he looked at the dog and stated "this looks like a good spot, eh Molly?" and the next thing I know, he is down on one knee, holding up a ring to me and asked me to marry him.

I said YES! and cried. and laughed. and cried. and called my mom, who already knew. Because Rainman had made a point of going to her house previously with the ring to ask her permission. And my dad already knew. Because Rainman had asked him for permission when we went to Blairmore the last time. And I guess the dog knew. Which is why she was playing sick and we rescheduled her hair appointment that day (she wasn't really playing -- she legit has been under the weather due to aging).

My ring is very sparkling. Almost as sparkly as I have been feeling since I had it placed on my finger. I get teary eyed thinking about walking down the aisle towards Rainman and knowing this is just the beginning of an amazing life we will have together. I get excited thinking that all of the ideas I have had for a wedding get to come to fruition. I get dreamy eyed when I think about the next 60 years or more we will have together and all of the adventures we will have.

And for a girl who woke up that morning feeling like an Ogre, I sure ended my Saturday feeling like a Princess. I knew Rainman was special the first time we met. And here I am about to embark on this amazing journey with him right next to me.

Tuned In Tuesday

This song came on in my car this evening while I was listening to a mix CD She-ra made me a few years ago.

And I got all teary.

Because something big just happened in my life that I promise to write all about tomorrow and this song made me so happy!

"Man oh man, you're my best friend"

♥

The Little Things

Rainman took me out for lunch today and came into the apartment to see all of the fur brats. He was sitting on the deck and all three were surrounding him waiting for pets. Rainman looked so happy.

I wonder if this is how my mom felt when she would see us kids run to my dad's truck when he got home from work. Before the divorce.

Random Musings

• Slowly and steady, my house is becoming more and more boxed up. I took a car full of items to Goodwill yesterday. And my dog groomer would be so proud that I brought a garbage bag full of paper to the recycling bin (instead of just tossing it). Rainman did a walk through of the place last week and sent me a few pictures. My new kitchen is gorgeous! I can't wait :)

• Kitty has been staying with me to help transition her to get used to having 2 other pets around. She pretends she hates Oryx, yet every day gets closer and closer in proximity to him. And she has started following us around. So that you can picture this: Molly is my shadow, Oryx is Molly's shadow and to end the train we now have Kitty. This is my life now. Oh, God, I need a drink, a speaker and a cigarette. ;-)

• My bag-o-booze fundraiser sales have slowed down a bit this week. I have lots of promises to buy tickets though. I have faith that this will turn out awesome. A few of the girls in Team McAwesome are also working out logistics to create a calendar where we are in vintage aprons, with kitchen props and there will be recipes shared each month. It should be a fun photo shoot. I love being surrounded by awesome. So inspiring.

• I am obsessed with the game SongPop right now. I am not great at Modern Rap and I suck at Classical, but I am an ace for 90s Alternative and Ultimate 90s. Want to play? Send me a request (my user name is lowqis).

Tuned In Tuesday

 Rainman introduced me to The Flobots a year or so ago and this morning while on my run, "Handlebars" came on as I ran through the park.

Every time I listen to this song I get a bit more out of it and the meaning becomes a bit more complex. At first a song that seemingly sounds like an "I can do anything" anthem, I think it shows just how out of control being able to do anything can become for humanity.

Watch, listen and leave me your thoughts. Enjoy!

The Authentic Meme

1. How long have you been blogging? Just under 5 years, I started in March of 2008.

2. Did you go to college? Yes and I am still going.

3. Where have you traveled? All over Canada and the United States, as well I have been to England (loved Cambridge, Southwald and of course, London), Latvia and Jamaica. So many more places to see.

4. Which celebrity do you get mistaken for? Not mistaken for, but often told I look like Jodie Foster

5. What are your three biggest pet peeves? People shortening my name to Laur or changing it to Laurie, People who are consistently late (it feels like you think your time is more important than mine), people who don't clean up after their dogs on walks.

6. What is your favorite movie? So many, but a movie I watch over and over would be the Labyrinth

7. What is your drink of choice; wine, beer, or liquor. Or Water, Soda, Tea? I am trying to tell myself it should be water, but like Jesus, I change it to wine ;-)

8. What is something you enjoy to do when you have me time? Soak in the tub reading.

9. What is your biggest phobia? I hate that feeling when you are on an unsteady surface and could fall. I have literally been in tears thinking I was going to plummet to my death -- from standing on a coffee table.

10. Share with us an embarrassing moment of your past? Everytime I try to do some quick math in front of Rainman, I get embarassed. Math is just not my forte. He tells me I am the smartest person he knows...till it comes to adding.

11. What day would you love to relive again? Why? I don't think I have had a day yet I want to relive. But if I absolutely had to choose, it would be between hiking Sulpher Mountain in Banff or Day 2 of the Ride to Conquer Cancer. I loved the feelings of accomplishment those days brought to me. I might just change of the cast a bit.

12. If your life was turned into a movie… what actor would your best friend think should play you? The girl that played Juno -- quirky, cynical, sarcastic, cute.

13. What are the jobs you had in high school/college/the early years? I have worked at a coffee shop, as a sandwich artist, manning the till at a dollar store, picking orders in a pharmaceutical warehouse, administrative work to sales support.

14. Show us a picture from high school or college. 

I don't know why I can't rotate this, but this is  Sara and I when we were 15. My hair was so short!

15. If you could travel anywhere in the world, all expenses paid, where would you go? I would do a year in Europe, travelling all over, doing both super touristy things and very local-like things.

16. Where do you see your life 6 and 1/2 years from now? Married and we own our first home. And I have taken Rainman on his first trip where he needs a passport :)

17. If you could choose to stay a certain age forever, what age would it be and why? my 30s. I am smart enough now to know what I want and how to get it without sacrificing who I am. 

18. What 5 songs are included on the soundtrack to your life? (You can pick "Middle School", "High School", "College", "Post College" or any format you like.)

• "The Macarena" -- because while I am figuring out myself I keep falling into the same habits, doing the exact same things over and over. Like a line dance.
• "White Rabbit" by Jefferson Airplane -- I partied pretty hard in my late teens and early 20s. This song reminds me of myself then.
• "I believe in a thing called love" by The Darkness -- no matter how many times I taped my heart back together, I never lost hope in love.
• "Eye of the tiger" by Survivor -- I just keep getting back up every time I falter.
• "Overcome" by Tricky -- karmacoma -- when there's trust there will be treats.

19. Romney picked Paul Ryan to run as his veep. Any thoughts? Nope.

 

Run for the Hills

Tonight I made a commitment to other community members on the Fb group for the half marathon to meet at the hill that is at kilometre 17 of our race.

 Hill training. UGH.

I would be lying if I said I wasn't a bit terrified of running up and down that hill multiple times in this heat. Here's to the next 8 Thursdays of my life.

Random Rambling

• I find it entertaining that Rainman thinks you can't have cereal for dinner or ice cream cake for breakfast. It's even more entertaining to me to witness the look of horror on his face when I break this silly rule of his. Life is for living and if I feel like having ice cream, then that's what I am going to do. 
• Our raffle for Ronald McDonald House started this week. We have 2500 tickets to sell. We have sold about 200 of them and its day 2. Keeping optimistic about reaching our goal. My little brother surprised me today saying he had sold 50 tickets and asked for more. I am seriously surrounded by awesome
• Kitty has moved in with Oryx, Molly and me till our big move at the end of the month. She has claimed the top of the fridge as hers due to it's bird's eye view of the other animals she now has to associate with. She isn't impressed with this situation at all. I think it's the apathy from my pets that's bothering her the most.
• I have another new manager at work. I am excited for this opportunity to increase my knowledge base of the industry as well as intrigued with utilizing some more social media aspects within my role. 7 managers in 5 years and every single one has helped me not only professionally, but also personally (even if they had no idea everything I have taken away from their mentorship)
• Still struggling with running. I have started following running blogs to inspire and motivate me. 
• On tonight's episode of Cooking with Lala, I made tuna burgers. Except I substituted gold fish crackers for bread crumbs. They were tasty and a nice alternative to just adding the tuna to my salad. And having tuna helped me gain back Kitty's adoration.
• Happy this is a short week and that it's a pay week. Just 16 more sleeps till we are in the new place!

Tuned In Tuesday

It's Tuned In Tuesday!

This weekend I watched a lot of Olympics and this song was in a commercial I believe (although it could have been a television show...mindless TV means I don't really think about what I am watching) -- thank goodness for Shazam!

I just love the 1960s-ish vibe of this song. And it made me think about a potential song for a big day in my life.

What are you playing on repeat today?

The Too Tired to Think Meme, Part 2

26. What type of errands do you like running? Buying groceries, returning the bottles to the depot. Other than that I don't really have regular errands.

27. Have you ever eaten snow? Absolutely. But never yellow snow.

28. What color are your bedsheets? Mine are red, Rainman's are white.

29. What’s your favorite flower? I love Orchids. We can blame the movie Adaptation for this obsession

30. Do you do ballet? No. But every year I go and watch the Alberta Ballet and for a few hours after, I plie and pretend that I too am a ballerina.

31. Do you listen to classical music? Yes. I was told listening to it while studying will help you retain what you're reading or something...(obviously I wasn't listening to Classical music when I was told this as I don't fully remember). Now I just enjoy listening to it when reading.

32. What is the first TV Theme song that pops in your head? Full House

33. Do you watch Sponge Bob? I have, but not religiously.

34. What temperature is it outside right now? It's very warm -- its 19 degrees Celcius and it is only 9 a.m. I foresee beers on a patio later....

35. Do people consider you smart? I have been told that I am smart yes. But I truly believe you can learn something from any one and you should be open to that around every one.

36. How many piercing do you have? My ears and my navel.So like 10 holes total, but I don't use all of the ear piercings anymore.

37. Are you signed on [to] AIM? No.

38. Have you ever tried gluing your fingers together? Probably. Remember question 35? I might not be smart all of the time.

39. How do you feel about your family? As I grow older, I am more appreciative of some members and less tolerant for the BS others pull and have made decisions to cut the toxicity out of my life.

40. Do you have an iPod? No. But I do have an iPhone.

41. What time do you go to bed? I aim for 10, but that usually turns into 11:30 or later.

42. What CD is currently in your CD player? In my car is Lana Del Ray -- a burned CD from Rainman.

43. What movie do you know every line to? Empire Records, Party Girl, Dazed and Confused, and Beauty and The Beast.

44. What is your favorite salad dressing? Olive oil and Balsamic Vinegar. Followed by Ranch.

45. What do you want for Christmas this year? It's our first Christmas in the new place. I want to start creating traditions. Pinterest has been very helpful in this field.

46. What family member/friend lives the farthest from you? Where? My friend Kerker lives in NL. My friend Nimet lives in Boston. I don't believe anyone is living over seas right now.

47. Do you like hugs? I love hugs from Rainman, my family and close friends. I am not a fan of hugs from people I am acquainted with or worse -- people I just met or don't even know.

48. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach? Rainman keeps looking in jewellery cabinets in the mall. :)

49. What’s the way people most often mispronounce any part of your name? They often say my last name as Brewer. But I am forgiving -- technically my last name is dutch for brewer.

50. Last person you hugged? Rainman this morning. <3 br="br">

The little things

I love when Rainman refers to himself as Dad or Daddy when talking to our pets. Warms my heart.

Happy Long Weekend!

on running

The last few runs I have had have been just awful. The podcast in my head has been very full of noise -- things to do, projects, ideas, news I have heard/discovered, books I have read, etc., etc., etc. It feels so loud I can't settle into a rhythm and I end up stopping and having to walk. And walking seems to create a voice in my head to start beating me up about being a failure (yes--very melodramatic of me, I know) which doesn't help motivate me to start running again.

Last Saturday I had to run 6 miles to keep up with my half marathon training. It started out well -- the air was cool, the sky was clear, the sun was shining. About 1km in, my nose started bleeding. Which sucked. But I didn't want to turn around and give up so I ran to the nearest gas station to get napkins. And then walked while I waited for the bleeding to stop (also, I need to stop watching movies. Right away I was sure my nose started bleeding because I was going to die. The number 1 sign in a movie that the protagonist is deathly ill is a sporadically bleeding nose). The walking made it more difficult to get back into my run and the negative white noise started up in my head. Rainman had offered to meet me at the 5k point with water (this is one of the reasons I know he's the one I am going to marry --he got up at 7 a.m. on a Saturday to drive water to me while I was running. Best. Boyfriend. Ever.) and I was a mess by the time we met up. I was crying and there were blood drips all over my legs -- he probably thought I had been in an accident, not just having a bad run. And he let me get into his car, with my tail between my legs, and cry the whole way home about how much I suck. And then he gave me a hug and made me laugh and told me I was awesome albeit ridiculous. And that I wasn't going to die. I love that guy.

On Wednesday, I just needed to put in a quick 3 miles. I went after work and again, the negativity got to me and I found myself walking and halfheartedly running the entire distance. I did make myself do the entire route though. Running usually clears my head, so I don't know WTF is going on here. I spoke with some friends on Twitter and it was recommended to listen to music or an actual podcast to distract myself. I promised myself that I would get up early this morning and try it out.

I did get up early this morning. And I did do my 3 miles. I didn't use music or a podcast. I used my head to just constantly tell myself to get to the next light post or just to the top of the hill or I could already see the mall which meant I was almost done. And this time it worked. I ran the entire 3 miles with no walking. And it was exactly what I needed to regain my confidence in running.

Some things that I need to remember:

• I need to increase the protein I am eating. Right now I am living on veggies and pasta.
• I need to keep hydrating myself all day, not just right after my runs
• I need to upload music into my iPhone to bring with me. My longer runs are going to need the distraction for sure.
• Everyone has bad runs and really fabulous runs. That's life. I need to stop beating myself up on the bad ones and remember those feelings of awesome from the great runs.
• That my real goal in this half marathon is to finish it. It's not about time or if I needed to walk. And no one is going to look down on me or stop loving me or lose pride in me if I finish last.

Running is supposed to be my escape and I really do love it. I think part of the issue is this pressure of being prepared for the half. And all of that pressure is causing a bit of noise that I can't run away from. If you run, how do you keep yourself going when its a tough day?

Random Musings

• This morning while walking the dog, I watched one old man boost another old man's truck. By old I do mean in their 70s, which I suppose some may consider young. Anyway, when the truck started, the old man needing the boost jumped out of the cab exclaiming that his friend (or possibly a stranger giving a hand) was magic and reached out to shake his hand. I loved witnessing this moment. A helping hand that was appreciated so much.

• Last night I picked up moving boxes from someone on Twitter advertising that she had tons. She wasn't lying. My Corolla was filled (back seat, front seat and trunk) and it felt very much like a clown car with how many boxes we got in there. It turned out that I had actually met the lady giving them away a few years ago at a GirlTalk Event. This city is crazy small sometimes.

• I kept half of those boxes and brought the other half to Rainman. As we unloaded my car and I kept piling them in his arms until he ended up dropping all of them, we had one of those fall down laughs with tears. I love moments like that -- it was so ridiculous that even now I am smirking thinking about it.

• 24 more sleeps till I get to share a room with my best friend. It's like counting down to Christmas. We're both very excited.

• I just read The Cat who Came in from the Cold --a fable about a wild cat in India who became the first domesticated cat. I really enjoyed it, it only took about an hour to read and the lessons on human nature were interesting.

Tuned In Tuesday

Inspired by the lovely Ashley at Unabashedly Ashley, I am bringing to you (well mostly myself as a place to record the music I am constantly falling in love with) Tuned In Tuesday! Ashley shared a flashback to my jr. high years this morning on her blog. I want to share Serena Ryder whom I recently discovered and who's voice I am crushing on this week.

Thanks to the people on Twitter at The Calgary Folk Festival for tweeting about Serena and introducing me to her very Melissa Etheridge type sound. Perfect to chill out to while browsing the Internet.

"Won't someone pay the rent?"

Every time I think of rent, I am reminded of this skit from Rocky and Bullwinkle. And because this is the last month that I am paying full rent on my own, I have been thinking of rent a lot (I also start thinking about the Broadway play and this song gets in my head too).

For the last 4 years, I have been paying my own way to live without a roommate. I have made a lot of sacrifices in order to keep a roof over my head and learned a lot about myself, finances and priorities in the process. I have learned to make do with the things I already own as my budget was already being squeezed with rent, utilities and that pesky thing called groceries. I have become a pro at mixing and matching items in my wardrobe so that I can use what I own without feeling like I have nothing to wear. My favorite game in the kitchen is playing "Chopped" so that nothing goes to waste and that I shop in my cupboards first before hitting the grocery store. I gave up cable and started reading more. I invited friends over and stopped going out as much. I also had a part time job for a bit to make sure everything was covered.

It has been a tough 4 years, but it has also been worth it. Living on my own has taught me greater independence and the ability to rely on myself. Not having roommates meant I am responsible for all of the messes that are made. It meant that if I wanted to sit in my living room painting until 4 a.m. while watching streamed episodes of The Hills or Jersey Shore, no one was there to judge me. I actually think that most people should spend a few months or a year living on his or her own. The growth one has when in this situation is amazing. And I feel fully prepared to have an actual room mate again.

My last month paying full rent, full utilities, full groceries. I am excited for the extra income I am about to have and tackling the last bit of my debt. I am excited to share chores with someone. I am excited to cook for someone. And even having the option of cable again.

Sunday Morning

• We went to The Ranche for brunch this morning. It was beautiful out so we opted to sit on the veranda. Sipping coffee, surrounded by flowers across from Rainman is my idea of bliss. We even decided in the new place we are going to put a little bistro set on our balcony and make it a Weekend thing to enjoy our coffee together out there.

•  There was also a wedding taking place at the restaurant. For the supposed happiest day of her life, the bride didn't seem very pleased. Her husband, on the other hand, couldn't quit crying. Such a lovely day for a wedding and in such a beautiful spot --right in the heart of Fish Creek park. Witnessing their union sparked the topic of conversation between Rainman and I, and we talked about the various venues we could wed in. 

• Yesterday at the mall, he had a jeweler measure my finger for him. Knowing its going to happen, but not knowing when is really exciting. And having Rainman check out my One Day board on Pinterest with interest offering his thoughts without fear is amazing. He plans on making me a MRS!!! Eek! :) 

• Just a few more weeks till we move. It's wonderful how everything is falling into place. I want to say I have never been happier, but every day something happens that increases my elation. To the girl I once was that was willing (and ready) to settle? Thank you for being strong enough to get through all of that pain. 

 We had such a fabulous weekend. How was yours?

One Week

Last night I watched the Canadian film "One Week" starring Joshua Jackson (oh Pacey, I still would choose you over Dawson). It was a random choice I found while scrolling through Netflix, but I highly recommend you watch it too.

Ben Tyler is diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. Knowing his chances of survival are slim, he feels compelled to finally live. On his way home from the doctor, he stumbles upon a man selling a motorcycle  and his roll-up-the-rim coffee tells him to "go west."  All of these signs tell Ben that he must take this adventure and, although his fiancee is dead set against it (which I think is ridiculously selfish of her, even though she tells Ben he is being selfish), Ben gets on his new motorcycle and heads west.

I loved that this movie had Ben stopping at all of the "World's Biggest" landmarks. This happens to be a thing I love visiting too where ever I go. And I loved that he was in Canada and on his cross country journey I was reminded of many of the landmarks we stopped to see the time Justin, my dad and I drove from Alberta to Ontario and back. I enjoyed that every person Ben meets on his way, he alters their life somehow the same way they help alter his. I think we so often forget in our journeys that every one we come in contact with leaves an imprint on us (and that should remind us that we left one on that person too). And the soundtrack for this movie was wicked.


Overall I found this movie incredibly inspiring. The reminder that we are all on borrowed time and we should live during that time was much needed. Plus I now am more motivated to convince Rainman to buy a motorcycle so we can travel across the country with the wind in our faces, being one with the road and the world. I also remembered how beautiful Canada truly is watching this film and that I should plan to travel here more. I mean, I have lived here 30 years and I have still never been to Quebec. Or the Territories. Or the Maritimes. I am forever wishing that I could run away to another country, experience another place -- yet I have so many opportunities to do so in my own back yard.

Final message: don't settle in life. Don't settle for that job, that partner, that house, anything that you question. Because one day your time will be up, and you will want to know that you lived.

Sunday Stealing: The Too Tired to Think Meme, Part 1

  
1. You have 10 dollars and need to buy snacks at a gas station. What do you get? Coca cola, a bag of 5 cent candies, salt and vinegar chips.

2. If you were reincarnated as a sea creature, what would you want to be? a mermaid

3. Who’s your favorite redhead? my mommy

4. What do you order when you’re at IHOP? I have never been, but I would guess pancakes?

5. Last book you read? Lamb by Christopher More

6. Describe your mood. Pretty fantastic. Had a great day at work, received a  positive job review for the first half of 2012, sold some items from kijiji, eating a delectable dinner of perogies and yam chips that I seasoned with curry powder, cumin, five spice and some coriander.

7. Describe the last time you were injured. I guess when I wore that cast on my wrist. Aside from running pains in my calves every so often.

8. Of all your friends, who would you want to be stuck in a well with? Rainman

9. Rock concert or symphony? Both, together. I love fusions.

10. What is the wallpaper of your cell phone? The number? (We'll just say "hi" - promise.) A positive mantra:it states live with intention, walk to the edge, listen hard, practice wellness, play with abandon, laugh, choose with no regret, continue to learn, appreciate your friends, do what you love, live as if this is all there is.

11. Favorite soda? coca cola

12. What type of shirt are you wearing? I'm not. I'm wearing a dress

13. If you could only use one form of transportation? Hot air balloon. How cool would that be?

14. Most recent movie you have watched in theater? The Avengers

15. Name an actor/actress/singer you have had the hots for. Josh Hartnett

16. What’s your favorite kind of cake? Cheese cake

17. What did you have for dinner last night? I had rice with cranberry sauce seasoned with curry powder. I have a thing for curry powder this week.

18. Look to your left, what do you see? My chart to show me how many car payments I have made and how many I have left. Yes, I am nerdy.

19. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? No

20. Favorite toy as a child? My barbies

21. Do you buy your own groceries? Yes. But I also eat over at Rainman's a lot. 

22. Do you think people talk about you behind your back? Of course. It's human nature and I am not perfect nor am I everybody's favorite. The thing is, I don't really care what people say. I live a pretty awesome life.

23. When was the last time you had gummy worms? Forever ago.

24. What’s your favorite fruit? Watermelon, strawberries and mangos.

25. Do you have a picture of yourself doing a cartwheel? I sure do...on a beach in Newfoundland.